I had to make a really touch choice recently. It’s for my own health. I have to go from full time, back down to part time work. L
Please don’t argue. But what about the money? Please don’t say anything that has to do with “but that’s part of being an adult.” Yea, I know, but I’m not a normal adult. I’m an adult with “special needs.” I’m autistic, I have mental health issues, I have other health problems. Working full time is too much for me. I know my limits. I have gone far beyond my limits.
Those are the reasons why only a handful of people know my decision. The ones closest to me. I know people are going to judge, so I only told those who wouldn’t judge.
I’m lucky I’m in a position to make this choice. I need more rest than others. I need more time for myself. I need more time to sleep.
It’s a tough choice. But it’s one I had to make. I’m hoping this will do more good than harm. It’ll be a bit of an adjustment.
Thanks for reading. Take care!
Like I talked about in my last blog post, today was the first day of school. It was pretty tough. I barely got enough sleep last night. I had a hard time falling asleep, staying asleep, and I tossed and turned a lot. Dang anxiety!
I need to review slopes for my math class. We just continue from where I left off from my last class. The teacher goes kind of fast too. I’ll be struggling this term.
I also found out that for one online computer class I need a laptop so I can do my homework on the go. I have a Linux laptop and a windows desktop. It’s not required, but it would be 10x’s easier if I had one. I also should’ve already taken the other computer class I’m taking, but it’s not required. This is going to be a fun term..
After class got out I went to the bookstore to get my books. I had to wait in line an hour before I could buy my book. That’s typical for the first week of class. Why do college textbooks have to cost so much?
I’m facing at least 30 hours of homework per week along with my 12 credit classes. On top of that I work. Why must I do this to myself? This is too difficult for me. I can’t handle this type of stress.
I’m not neurotypical. I have no other choice though. I’ve been forced to go t work because I’m no longer disabled enough for Social Security. I want to go to school for a better job than a cashier at Walmart, but it’s too difficult to work and go to school. Why does life have to shit on me so hard right now? Ugh!
Rant over, for now, sorry.
Thanks for reading! I hope you have a good day!
Merry Christmas to those who celebrate Christmas! Happy Holidays who celebrate other holidays!
I am at my mom’s celebrating Christmas with my family. We’re having a good time.
Non Christmas related stuff:
Phew! The holidays have been crazy for me. It felt like all I did was go to work, go home and go to bed, and repeat. I was scheduled 30+ hours a week. I had one day of being completely lazy, on a snow day, but that was it. On other days I didn’t work I saw friends, but that only happened a couple of times.
I’m hoping that since my hours will be dropping I’ll be able to have more time for my Etsy shop. I still want to run my shop. Something I’ve learned about running my shop is to make my items, then sell them. Don’t do made to order, that is much more difficult to do.
I am trying a new craft and I’m hoping to be able to start making and selling items from that.
I got an A in my ASL class and a B in my writing class. Next term I’ll be taking ASL 202, Reading 115, and Math I think 60 something..
Thank you for reading my random ramblings. Take care!